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I know when I leave you're all laughing

Laughing at
The Freak
The Weirdo
The Loner

Laughing at
How I have no friends
How I don't fit in
How you all hate me
How I think you're my friends

I know you're all laughing at me

You'll never accept me
You'll never like me

You'll always hate me
You'll always be laughing at me
I just went to the 18th birthday party for a "friend" of mine. I had to leave early since it ended really late. I can't help but always think they must be laughing at me. It's not like they'd actually like me. Nobody would.
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boltythesuperdog Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2014
It's true.They laugh at you,hate you and so on...
But...That is just one more reason to be happy to be you.Because you don't need to laugh at other people to have self-esteem.You are NOT like them.You are not crying because you are weak,but rather because you have been strong for too long.Here is what I will tell you.I do believe in spiritual stuff,but you have soul.That soul gives off such strong,positive energy,that the bullies who are insecure about themselves,need to have that energy.That's why they bully you.They steal it that way.They put you through psychological agony.That's when something even scarier happens.You start going insane.You see,everybody has a dark voice in their head,making them feel like shit.Happy people ignore it,almost mute it.But as your psycological torture continues,the voice will start getting louder.
No,I can't stop that voice,but that doesn't mean I am not on your side.
Yes,we will probably never,ever meet,but there is something special about you.
I don't know you,but if I one day I approach you and tell you that you can learn telekenisis,telepathy,pyrokenisis and so on and give you a book with meditation practises and stuff,you would look at me skeptically or say what the fuck,but you would never say"HAHA,YOU DUMB PIECE OF SH*T,YOU HAVE NO FRIENDS!"And then even if you are skeptical,you would take it,because you could calm yourself.And I dunno,lets say that one day you master this,wouldn't yyou be happy?I mean if somebody wants to hit you,you could always push him back.
Also,I don't think I will ever find a person who could levitate things and not be happy.
Now remember that,if they laugh at you,they don't deserve you.You have a very special talent inside of you.
I'll be there for you.
TaoShaman Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you very much. ^_^
People really just don't understand what they do to people.
People in my major are always saying how nice everyone is and how they'll all help you with your films and you'll work with them. But it's not true. It's never really been true. It's only true if you're lucky enough to make friends or good enough for people to want you. The only hope I have of people wanting me is because I'm pretty much the only person that does physical effects, but nobody will get to know me enough to actually know that. People can be quite terrible.
SunShiny-Sunflower Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Did you ask them if they like you?
TaoShaman Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2013  Student General Artist
I'm too scared to.
SunShiny-Sunflower Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Well you can't know for sure then. They might actually like you, I mean you got an invitation for a birthday party...
TaoShaman Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2013  Student General Artist
I guess, but I feel like they might just do it to be nice. So they don't feel guilty. It's not like I really have friends or go/do anywhere/thing.
SunShiny-Sunflower Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Did you ever ask anyone to go somewhere with you or do something with you..?
TaoShaman Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2013  Student General Artist
I'm always too scared to.
SunShiny-Sunflower Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Well maybe they're scared to tell you something nice too. ._. It goes both ways really.
I, too, thought that no one likes me until one day I broke down in front of the whole school crying and then everyone came and told me that they find me interesting and would love to hang out but were afraid to say so, because I had given them the signals not to come near. So you gotta start communicating with people in order to know for sure whether they like you or not. Your piece is full with resentment and it has no basis right now, because you don't know whether they really laugh behind your back or not. Find the courage inside you and go to them...
waiting-for-wings Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
been there before...
wonderfully written, i can really feel the emotion behind it
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